To tell you guys honestly, I'm not the same. Nothing's the same. Nothing feels the same! And no... it's not a good thing. I've been having a hard time trying to write new stories and continuing those that I've already started. Heck! I've been having a hard time with everything! I used to do everything I could to achieve my dreams!
The Reggie I see now does the opposite.
He's okay being a slacker, he's okay being irresponsible, he's okay being unreliable... Ugh! Whatever happened to me anyway? I lost my passion at everything! Before, I do what I do from the heart... Now, I don't feel anything at all. From writing stories to the martial arts, I feel nothing special now. I feel no passion at all and it annoys me!
No matter how much I force myself to feel how I used to feel, it just doesn't happen! The idea of being a failure eats me alive! Don't get me wrong, I do my best to retain positivity. Its just that a certain "I-don't-know-what" overpowers me... and I had to write about this hoping it may be of any help.
Still, somehow I'm sure I'll get through this. I can't wait! I'll continue doing the things I love to do 'til my passion flares back! Gosh!
Having lost a lover is...
annoying.
The Reggie I see now does the opposite.
He's okay being a slacker, he's okay being irresponsible, he's okay being unreliable... Ugh! Whatever happened to me anyway? I lost my passion at everything! Before, I do what I do from the heart... Now, I don't feel anything at all. From writing stories to the martial arts, I feel nothing special now. I feel no passion at all and it annoys me!
No matter how much I force myself to feel how I used to feel, it just doesn't happen! The idea of being a failure eats me alive! Don't get me wrong, I do my best to retain positivity. Its just that a certain "I-don't-know-what" overpowers me... and I had to write about this hoping it may be of any help.
Still, somehow I'm sure I'll get through this. I can't wait! I'll continue doing the things I love to do 'til my passion flares back! Gosh!
Having lost a lover is...
annoying.
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